Chapter 1: When I first started feeling depression and anxiety
I am going to try my best to tell a story about the beginning of my experience with mental health & illness. Which is a such daunting task. So I'm going to try to attack it head on and hopefully write about it in a clear way to tell my story the best I can. I noticed something was wrong when I was a freshman in college living in Hawaii. About halfway through freshman year my motivation was low, I felt misunderstood, I wanted to sleep all the time, and I had low self-esteem; which was something I had never struggled with before. I lost interest in school and hobbies that I typically excelled in, and could barely concentrate on simple tasks. It was something I had never experienced, and since it happened so gradually, I was in denial about it. I thought that maybe I was just this lazy sad person and I that had failed to notice earlier in my life. Which couldn't be further from the truth. Growing up I was extremely interested in school, extracurricular activities, and was an o...